Numbness is not holiness

Numbness is not holiness. If you feel emotions that stem from selfishness or faults, do not simply cut yourself off from them and become numb. Rather, choose to act in a holy fashion, even against your feelings, and allow those choices and actions to change your emotions. Ask God to convert the energy to something holy.

If you cut yourself off from your heart, you have cut yourself off from the inner cell where Jesus dwells.

Criticism

You must take all criticism to prayer -- especially when it is given poorly! Ask the Lord to show you what of it is Truth. It may have been unfair but likely it was not unfounded.

God's Love

In the end, all questions, struggles and doubts are swallowed in His Love for us. We love to think that in the end we will know everything. Perhaps instead we will finally know without a doubt that everything is nothing in the face of Love.

How unsatisfying for the prideful mind, even as it fills the soul with peace!

Prayer of trust

Make your prayer an act of trust. Do not require that God speak to your consciousness but only to your heart. Let Him bypass the weaknesses and limits of your mind and go straight to your heart. There, He can do much without your ever knowing. In fact, perhaps He will accomplish more, since He can sanctify you without giving rise to pride!